The setting really put you in a wonderland mood, particularly with the objects and pictures provided during the experience. It was my first time taking a high dose and that day changed how I see time and dimensions.
-1st time psychedelic user & Software Developer from Syria
Overall, I found the experience to be incredibly empowering, cathartic, releasing, healing, and exhausting. It was wonderful to have a safe space where I felt supported and comfortable to do completely as I needed to without judgement.
I felt really supported and nurtured and really appreciated the experience of having two guides as I felt I received very different (and very important!) support from both of them I strongly identify Nikolitsa with my doula and birther, and Amanda's energy work was incredibly powerful for me.
There were also moments (like when they brought out the poetry, offered the bath, shared a crystal with me), that I didn't realize I needed or wanted those things, but all of them were so instrumental in the experience that I had. I feel like the experience unfolded exactly as it should have.
-Founder/Coach from Chicago, USA
I guess everyone arrives to mushrooms with different expectations. For me it was my eternal search for answers.
Throughout all my life I have struggled to decide what it was I wanted to be. It was hard to choose my university degree, then my career and I was never satisfied with the choices made. over time this search has become more desperate. As the pressure has started to grow to start my own family with my 30th birthday approaching, I was feeling life was closing in on me and I was running out of time.
On the outside my life is perfect: an interesting, well-paid job with great career prospects, I just got married to the love of my life, I live in the city of my dreams, I have wonderful friends. But deep inside that fear of not “finding myself” was building. And that’s why I jumped on the idea of magic mushrooms. It has to be said, though, the way Amanda talked about the experience, I did not associate it with drugs (for which I have a huge stigma as many of us do). Even though I was trying to manage my expectations, I struggled: my imagination, fueled by my anxiety, was going wild with images of my inner calling being finally revealed to me. That upon my return I will know exactly what I want and I will proceed to follow that path whatever it might be. Of course, I knew it would never be like that, life just doesn’t work in that way, but my imagination just took off and I couldn’t bring it back to earth.
And indeed, what I got was something completely different to what I had expected. I found out that no answers were needed. And to my surprise, I was fine with that. Somehow, the search for answers, that urgency is now gone from my life. To me the experience was a gift of once again for a moment becoming a child. I was once again that little child self that always worked so hard, tried to please everyone, worried about underachieving, about disappointing her parents. I became that child again, and I loved that child, for that moment I truly loved myself and pitied myself for all that toughness that I have built up. I realized a very simple thing – but aren’t all most true and beautiful things simple? – I just needed to let go, to stop trying to achieve and to please. I only wanted to play and have fun – things I deprived myself of as a child.
Amanda’s presence was crucial. I should start with the fact that I never in my life thought I would be persuaded to take drugs (or at least, substances that are still illegal in most of the world). But it was through Amanda that I learnt about magic mushrooms and the power they hold. And I am scared to imagine all things that could go wrong if I tried to do the trip by myself with the limited knowledge I had. But Amanda’s experience and support made me feel comfortable throughout the journey.
The apartment is perfect for it: it is light and spacious with huge leafy plants, flowers, crystals and other intriguing objects, which Amanda promptly passed to me to stimulate my imagination during the trip. She was always there for me, gently nudging towards a direction my journey was taking, making useful suggestions which helped me to understand better what was going on inside me, and generally being a constant support and an emphatic ear. I don’t know how I could it without her.
Since the trip I have read a bit more psychedelics and learnt about the importance of set and setting. Well, I was just extremely lucky that I go such a perfect setting organized by Amanda! I am so extremely grateful for this beautiful and unique experience: I hardly can compare it with anything or find words to describe it. It was just pure beauty and love.
- 1st time psychedelic user & Economist from Russia